what is my passion
i have two in life
music
helping
both bring out inspiration. both require heart. thats what passion is right
even though ill never get to chase my dream of music, ill never give up my passion for helping people.
but maybe passion isnt the right word for it. maybe the correct term is greed, or selfishness. maybe im not really helpful, maybe im just lacking self esteem. maybe i just want to feel worthy. perhaps i want to feel useful, like im not just a body wasting space.
am i blowing myself out of proportion when i say that my only pure happiness comes from the happiness of other around me? am i simply making myself look better than i am? am i falsely saying that i am selfless, when really i am just selfish all round?
is it selfish of me to say that helping people is my passion? is it incorrect for me to say that i will do whatever it takes to help someone, even if that means hurting myself?
i know i dont have much time left here. what can i do with it?
what am i doing here. who am i. where am i.
here is my new proposal:
i want to direct a film, which entails art, music, dancing, acting, beauty, everything that the world lacks in appreciation. i want to inspire again, i want to feel again.
will you help me?
